It eats me up when I deal with incompetent authority that runs against what I believe to be right and what’s important to me. I noticed that it seems to get under my skin more than my friends.
For example, as a Product Designer and Engineer, I need to know the why behind a request to be able to do my job best. If I get an answer like, because the director wants it, I tend to ask, why? Could I meet with them to learn more so I could do my work well?
But then often I’d get a response like, we just have to do it because they said so. I find that I can’t swallow that. Maybe once or twice. As an exception. More than that? No.
It troubles the chemistry of my well-being. It messes me up. It makes me feel I’ll lose respect for myself and my integrity.
I thought I might have control issues. I sat down many times and thought sincerely and honestly, but I don’t think it’s a control issue. Because I don’t mind following authority in general, especially earned one. Whether they earned my respect, or because I believe they received their power through competency.
I live my entire life learning from component people, whether they are higher or lower than me in the relative “hierarchy” of whatever organization system. Younger or older than me. As a life long learner, I…
